Yahweh's Timing

I can't help but think of the readers of yesterday's post and wonder in what state you may be reading our news. I know that there are many women in this world that long to post a blog post and a status update like the one that we did yesterday. There are women who are praying and hoping for months or years to see the two pink lines on the pee stick, there are women who remember the years that they had to wait to become pregnant, or the baby they did not announce because the child did not live long enough. There are women in this world who cannot make such announcements because they are, or were faced with a decision to abort or choose adoption. There are husbands who long to be fathers and see the joy in their wives' faces when they find out about a pregnancy. Maybe someone in one of those situations, or another that I am not thinking about, read our blog yesterday and felt pain. This pain may be caused by a longing to understand God's purposes behind why things happen the way they do.
As much as I want to know Yahweh's reasons for why things happen, or fully grasp what the will of God is, I am limited in my understanding. As much as I want to understand when God allows things to happen and when he plans things to happen, I can't. I am a finite being.

For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

neither are your ways my ways, declares Yahweh.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth,

so are my ways higher than your ways 

and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Is. 55:8-9 (ESV)

In my own life I have wrestled with Yahweh about his timing and unfortunately, I am sure I will wrestle with him again.  So far, the end result of my wrestling has always been the Lord asking me to trust him more. Yahweh is more than worthy of my trust, yet I can still withhold it. Scripture speaks to the trustworthiness of God over and over again. Abraham was asked to sacrifice Isaac after all that was promised to him through his decedents. Even though it went against all understanding, Yahweh asked Abraham to kill his son, and Abraham went for it, trusting Yahweh's plan (Gen. 22).

It is indeed sweet to trust the Lord but O how I need grace to trust him more!